Going into 2020, I had plans for this blog space and to be more intentional about showing up to write and share. I didn’t do much journaling, if any, during the last quarter of 2019, and that has ramifications for me. There’s a lot rattling around inside my heart and mind that needs to be released before I can adequately examine and sort through it all, and journaling is usually how I start that process. When that doesn’t happen, it builds up and gets loud, making it hard for me not to get lost in the chaos and noise. So I bought a new journal and made myself sit down and start doing the hard work of putting words to the chaos and noise. I even started a list of what from those musings I wanted to share in this space.

Then the pandemic happened and everyone’s plans for everything went down the drain. So I did some other writing, instead, to try and ground myself while the world was spinning off its axis. While I didn’t end up finishing that writing series, it did help a lot; in concert with some other resources, it helped me reconnect with myself and with God, and I do feel more grounded.

So I want to go back and share some of the content I originally intended to share. Those musing may have been postponed, but they are still rattling around in my heart and mind and are just as relevant in our current circumstances as they were before the pandemic. Maybe even more so.

The coronavirus pandemic has interrupted and derailed so much, in both mildly annoying and also devastating ways, but it has also forced many to take stock of their lives. I am one of those, and honestly, I am glad of it. It is very rare that one experiences a hard reset like what we are experiencing right now. I am praying for the grace and strength to resist the urge to hide and instead to turn toward that hard reset, behold it in all its pain and glory, and emerge on the other side a little more transformed than when I entered it.