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{ uncertain reflections : day 1 }

When I look out my window, I see lifeless trees—apple, peach, maple, cottonwood—and vines. They look scraggly and bare. From a distance, it’s easy to think they are still deep in winter hibernation. But they aren’t. If I look closely—really focus my eyes—I see little bumps on the branches of the apple tree. They are places where leaves and blooms are preparing to burst forth. I see those white-rimmed little bumps and think of a pressure confetti cannon. Soon those bumps will explode with a bower of little white blossoms that will eventually drop their petals on the grass below and cover it like snow. That grass used to be short and faded, but it’s greening again, starting to look soft and fluffy, growing tall enough to begin hiding the leaves that remain from the long winter.

The shrubs at the back property line are starting to unveil their green leaf buds, too. Little dots of bright green are sprinkled through the fence of twigs and trunks and branches. Right now I can still see through it all to the actual fence that lines the back of the shopping center I live behind, but soon I won’t be able to see any of that, only thick green shrubs and trees in bloom and vines weaving it all together and filling in the corners and crevices with their leaves.

When I look out my window, I see what is. But I also see what is coming because I remember what has been and that it will be again.

When I look out my window, I see tomorrow.

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The world is upside down right now because of COVID-19. I confess I was already struggling with high anxiety before this virus became a thing anyone anywhere knew anything about, but this new reality of lockdown orders and pandemic fallout has ratcheted the anxiety up to scary levels. And please know that when I say scary,… Continue reading { punctuate : uncertainty }

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Sometime in 2010, I stopped journaling. That year began with my departure from the foreign mission field in Mexico, continued through transitioning into a a stateside admin role and international discipleship via phone and chat services, and ended with work as a full-time nanny to triplet preemie infants. Woven throughout those milestones was an online… Continue reading { punctuate : chronicles }

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When I left for work yesterday, I was feeling the need for some soul soothing, so I decided to listen to another episode of the STORY Podcast, which never fails to provide positive nourishment for my mind, creativity, and spirit. Before they launched into the pre-recorded interview with writer, artist, and speaker Amber Rae, podcast… Continue reading { punctuate : dancing with fear }

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Last week marked my two-year theraversary—that is, the two-year anniversary of my first session with Wonder Therapist (she really is so wonderful!). Technically, the date was October 14, 2014, but I meet with her on Tuesdays, so this year the date was October 11. Life being what it is, my first appointment in October was canceled… Continue reading { punctuate : wonder therapist }

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{ lenten reflections : resurrection and defeat }

Sunday was Easter—or as I prefer to call it, Resurrection Day! It is the eighth and final day of Holy Week, and it marks the end of the season of Lent. Why is it significant? Because it commemorates the Sunday almost two thousand years ago on which Jesus, the Son of God and promised Messiah, rose from… Continue reading { lenten reflections : resurrection and defeat }

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{ lenten reflections : rebellion and intervention }

Today is Saturday, the seventh day of Holy Week and of my daily reflections on the events of that week. That Saturday was the only full day that the incarnate God of the universe spent in the tomb. There was still no breath in His body, and all of creation was holding its, waiting to see what would happen. Even… Continue reading { lenten reflections : rebellion and intervention }